Tomorrow is the big day. It really does seem like a big day, something I have looked forward to since week 9, my next meeting with our baby. All three of us go tomorrow at 10am for the 20 week ultrasound. I thought it would be fun to take Alyssa and see her reaction. Plus she will love seeing the baby. She gives him/her hugs and kisses and says “I love you baby.” Okay — so I told her one night at bedtime, “tell the baby you love him too,” but she does it on her own now. She gives the baby stickers when she is passing them around, one for me and one for my belly. She is just so cute, I thought she can only make this day better.
So, what do we want? You may not ask, but everyone thinks it. Alyssa said for the longest time, I want it to be a girl, like us. “What if it is a boy?”, I ask. Not even an option, “I want a sister.” But within the last week, she has now flipped to “it’s a boy.” So much for her being my fortune teller. Bottom-line I think she will be happy either way. Me? I am truly mixed. I would love to have another little girl. Girl is all I know, and I love it. And we don’t have any sisters or many girls around here, so that would be fun to watch… for a few years anyway. But of course, I want to experience the joys of a boy. And I want Ethan to share that bond. I want to have a boy to get back a little of what I missed with Noah, but I don’t want a boy, so that nothing ever comes close to replacing him. These are all good things. It means I can find the joy in either sex. And I am anxious to see where my joy will come from.
I will be praying for you! Enjoy your special day. God Bless the four of you!
(I found you through Ira’s website, I knew Laura growing up.)
Julie,
I so get it! I can’t wait to hear! After we lost Luke, we chose not to find out what our next baby was. We needed every element of surprise to get us through to the end of that pregnancy. I kind of had a feeling that she was a girl, and she was. Makenzie Grace came and was perfect. She restored so much joy in our lives and helped us heal in a way that could only come through a child. Our girls, all three, have been a constant source of joy and hope for us. There isn’t a night that goes by that one, if not all, thank God for “Baby Luke”. And now, we ask God to bless our new baby, our son, who will be born in July. God’s timing is perfect, His love is perfect, He gives good gifts, and knows the desires of our hearts. Many, many blessings to you. I really would love to talk sometime.
Becky Clinton
Julie,
I can’t wait to hear what you are having. I know you will be elated with either. Everyone asks what I would rather have, and of course I think boy, because it is all I know. I’m sure I’ll be back a time or two today to look for an update!
Good thoughts gigger. This way, but really this way, that way, but really that way. Through it all, you put your trust in God. And the JOY he will provide. We are all definately glad to be a part of it.